Terry Cree writes poetry and experimental fiction. His work has been published in various magazines, webzines and anthologies. His collection, Fruit, is published by Two Rivers Press.
The Consolation of Walls by Terry Cree
I hope he found some consolation in walls. I almost think he did. (Dickens, Bleak House)
There is a wall inside me against which
I have been kicking a small rubber ball
Sometimes it rolls back flat along the ground.
Sometimes it bounces back like feelings plotted
on a graph,
That old oscillation of up and down.
I can’t decide if it’s the motive force
bouncing against wall I feel in feeling
or whether it’s the stoical resistance
stonewall part of me that never submits.
And which is better, moving ball or wall?
like Mr Jellyby, I’ll settle for
the cool consolation of a wall against
The ball can rest inside me like a stone,
as hard and rubbery as death, unkicked,